surrender its hard

right now iam dealing with allot in life write now iam finding myself just sad i know no 1 really reads this so this my thoughts being typed out but its crazy cause so many people think i have so many friends but right now i dont feel like that i iam havening a hard time right now dealing with change none of this make sense its ok i know it doesn't but its hard because i have some many friends i hold so close to my heart and love so much and some times i feel like iam just another name on a chauck board to them

this is so hard for me so many times i have felt like this basically all this week but see heres the turn around part in the blog ive been reminded about something i learned at passions 2 months ago john piper was talking about how we must surrender things to God before they can be right in our lives basically i realized i need to not just surrender the things that seem easy but the hard things friends family all these things we must surrender to God i have been putting friends in front of God so much ive been depending on things to fill me up sometimes rather that God i just want ot make Jesus name famous with my life but we have trials and hard times in our lives i believe God gave us friendships as a way to keep living our lives for him but we cant put our friends in front of him

basically iam not expecting any 1 to understand this at all if you do kudos to you but it is hard to surrender the things we treasure the most but if we surrender our friendships God will bless them and there will never be a question of doubt about whether its a true friendship or not in regards to any friends who reads this don't think i think we arnt really friends i truly love and cherish all my friends you all have helped me keep on my walk with GOD we need each other but ive been needing to learn how to Surrender friendships to God i just pray that you (reader) and i learn how to really surrender these things in live if we do God will bless them and if we dont we will use these friendships to try and fill a void they cant fill

i love you all

GOD IS LOVE
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