surrender its hard

right now iam dealing with allot in life write now iam finding myself just sad i know no 1 really reads this so this my thoughts being typed out but its crazy cause so many people think i have so many friends but right now i dont feel like that i iam havening a hard time right now dealing with change none of this make sense its ok i know it doesn't but its hard because i have some many friends i hold so close to my heart and love so much and some times i feel like iam just another name on a chauck board to them

this is so hard for me so many times i have felt like this basically all this week but see heres the turn around part in the blog ive been reminded about something i learned at passions 2 months ago john piper was talking about how we must surrender things to God before they can be right in our lives basically i realized i need to not just surrender the things that seem easy but the hard things friends family all these things we must surrender to God i have been putting friends in front of God so much ive been depending on things to fill me up sometimes rather that God i just want ot make Jesus name famous with my life but we have trials and hard times in our lives i believe God gave us friendships as a way to keep living our lives for him but we cant put our friends in front of him

basically iam not expecting any 1 to understand this at all if you do kudos to you but it is hard to surrender the things we treasure the most but if we surrender our friendships God will bless them and there will never be a question of doubt about whether its a true friendship or not in regards to any friends who reads this don't think i think we arnt really friends i truly love and cherish all my friends you all have helped me keep on my walk with GOD we need each other but ive been needing to learn how to Surrender friendships to God i just pray that you (reader) and i learn how to really surrender these things in live if we do God will bless them and if we dont we will use these friendships to try and fill a void they cant fill

i love you all

GOD IS LOVE
nate

Salvation is Here

wow so iam still new at posting blogs i forget bout it. so iknow prob no 1 read my blog but that ok so iam involved in a ministrie called Young Life its a group that reachs out to highschool students and basically is just love to ppl and shows Gods to love to students who are lost and searching in a public school and tonight at young life my dear friend tom brown who is a leader basically got upand poured his heart out. He layed Gods story out on the line an basically told how the only thing that can fill your heart with pain and hurt and lose is Jesus and Jesus did pay it all paid in full so ya Love shows up when you least expect it wait actually love is always there Whe just dont alway except that fact. also last week i got to hang out with one of my favorite bands of all time As Cities Burn. These guys are amazing i have been listening to their music for about 4 to 5 years. Their lyric are those of 4 honest christ following men. they just pour their hearts out to God. The show they palyed at was filled with allot of bad things but God made his presence know as they palyed their last song with had the melody of i love your lord with a harder feel to it they put their own words in "WE WILL WEAR COMPASSION WE WILL WEAR IT........ AND THE GATES OF HELL WONT STAND AGAINST US"! that night was so GOd filled not only by their music but by just having conversations there r simply a worship band with a harder feel also that night played my Brothers from Sydney Ohio Dear Brother these guys mean so much to me they Are a hardcore progressive worship band so check them out http://www.myspace.com/dearbrothermusic and also check out http://www.myspace.com/ascitiesburn well thats all for tonight it know that none of this makes sense to any of you but its how iam yaaaa

GOD IS LOVE
nate

Keeping strong

Iam just finishing up high school as a January Grad. it is becoming so hard to keep pressing on to not give up and to keep focused on the important things. God is blowing my mind right now tho iam filled with so many oppertuintys its unreal and he keeps providing and keeps on rocking my world iam just learning ho to keep on trusting him

iam still new at this blog site so this is all for today more to come soon

GOD IS LOVE
nate